today's musings

I had a pondering today at work. I was on my way to Home Depot to grab some materials for the day in the company flatbed truck. I passed a car parked on the side of the road that had the contents of the trunk on the ground, the spare tire out, and a man on a cell phone. I blasted on past to pick up the material at Home Depot before continuing up to the job.

but I started wondering. I remember a study recently that showed most Christians won't stop and help someone if they are in some kind of rush to be somewhere. I'm guilty of that, given today's events, but still...I almost feel like the non-Samaritans in the Good Samaritan story.

I would've done a disservice to my boss if I had stopped though. would've cost him money. whether I think he should worry about money or not is not my place; what is my place is to perform for him the best I can, as if performing unto God Himself.

so really I was faced with two rather lame options. stop and help the guy, feel good about myself for helping someone in need, and get chewed up and down by the boss for wasting his time. OR, blast on past the guy, getting to the jobsite as quickly as possible to finish as quickly as possible, and save the boss money.

I was left figuring I had to choose the lesser of two evils, but I'm not sure I actually chose the lesser of two evils.

I didn't get the job

although I guess it was down to me and another candidate. it was a fun ride breezing through the interviews, but, alas, apparently I'm not what they wanted.

so I'll keep digging holes and building fences until another job opportunity comes up. still need a roommate, still need a life, still need...gosh, I probably need everything. oh shoot, and it looks like I need to go to work too. dag nab it.

I don't wanna work, I just wanna bang on the drum all day

but I am working, and not playing percussion.

family is in town. therefore this week is redeemed

a quick one

went on a date with my wonderful girl tonight. it was fantabulous.

work is....less than desirable right now. pretty sure I'm hoping on the next job that's even comparable in wages. too much frustration, too much aggravation, too much annoyance. such is life I suppose, but I certainly don't see any reason to willfully subject myself when options exist.

oh, and I watched the video of the girl who died in the Iran protests. horrific. I shouldn't have, I'll probably have sad dreams now, but...I dunno what it is about human nature that must watch others' suffering. perhaps it is our desire to identify and to a subconscious extent empathize with others. perhaps it's a sadistic side. perhaps the sadistic side is itself a way of empathizing with pain.

whatever it is, I am so very deeply saddened by the violence. I know that such violence is "more common" in the Middle East, but clinical depression could be more common over there and I'd still be sad. I'm saddened. and I'm realizing I'm not praying near hard enough. I sincerely pray that the scheduled protest will be peaceful and not marked by violence or the emergence of new martyrs.